Post by Felicity Ann Mason on Feb 1, 2021 22:13:57 GMT -5
I looked out the window as the overcast night sky looked so pretty compared to things I had been through recently. I smiled, in an almost eerie manner as I spoke.
”What is it that makes us fear something? Is it truly a feeling or is it us facing a harsh reality? These are the questions I issue to the Bane. I ask because, I don’t know what it means to fear anything or anyone anymore. When you have been through the shit I have, you learn to become numb to that which goes bump in the night. Ask America Jackson if I fear anything. I didn’t fear him. I don’t fear failure. I don’t fear you.”
I paced around a bit. My ribs showing through the skin tight tank top I was wearing. Truth be told, I hadn’t eaten since I stopped seeing Dr. Gwen. Dr. Gwen had actually gone missing since the incident happened. I shook my head.
”What are we to do when our support system disappears? What happens when nothing else matters but our past? That is where I am at, Bane. I am at the point that the vampire side of me may be coming out to play. You may get the side of me that is absolutely unstoppable.
Something tells me that you want that, Bane. After your pathetic showing in the match with Chase at 2021 Ways to Die, you have a death wish and want to be put out of your misery. I will do my best to do that.”
I had a seat on a stool, kicking my legs like a child almost.
”You know, it is kind of silly that you are getting an opportunity to face me. I was oh so close to winning the North American Title, a title I will soon hoist above my head, but you didn’t even try to win. Chase Blackley, a newbie, kicked your spooky ass around the ring. You have never been able to grasp things in APW have you?”
My fangs flashed briefly. I closed my eyes and was able to fight them back. I shook my head.
”No! No! No! Phoenix is dead and must stay dead. Unlike Jason Ryan, I am strong. I am able to fight my demons back. I must stay on the path of rehabilitation. I must stay stronger than you Jason. I will make sure, whether it is you or the Bane that shows up on Metal, that you are done. You will get pinned and defeated. You will simply never be anything to anyone and that kills you.
You saw me doing well so you reinvented yourself. You went down a dark path. It isn’t the darkness that guides me but rather it is my own drive and determination. It is everything to me to win. Success is my only choice in life. For so long I was the failure. I was the black sheep of my family. That is why I allowed Phoenix to come out.”
I looked around as I shook in a tremendous amount of pain and anxiety. The fangs pushed their way through again. I screamed out in agony. Tears streamed down my face as I allowed Phoenix to come out.
”What this weakling, Felicity, is trying to say is that we can’t fight the inevitable. It is inevitable that I will return. You better hope it isn’t this week. You better hope it is Felicity and not me making their way down that ramp. She will let up. I will not. You remember well I am sure what happened to you the last time Jason. How you are even still alive is simply a wonder. What happens when our worst nightmares become a reality? Jason Ryan, I leave that question to you.
I laughed followed by a cry as I couldn’t figure out who I was anymore.
